Tag Archives: loving you

Break

Posted on June 5, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello my dearest love. It’s Sunday night and I’m back at our house after spending the weekend at Mum and Dad’s. The last couple of days have been very like a little holiday from the abject depths of my grief. … Continue reading →

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Coat

Posted on June 4, 2011 by cancerwidow

Evening love. It’s only 10:20pm and I can barely keep my eyes open. Very unusual for me – I’m usually wide awake until midnight at least. It’s making my head hurt trying to keep my eyes open. Yesterday, as I … Continue reading →

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Sixteen

Posted on June 3, 2011 by cancerwidow

Evening, my love. It’s been a day. I’ve cried, laughed, been angry and sad, and happy too. To be honest, today would be the best Friday I’ve had since you died, but that’s not saying much. It’s just that here, … Continue reading →

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Winter, Heart and Soul

Posted on June 2, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello my love. The mornings are getting cold. Makes it hard to get out of bed when the alarm goes off. I’m already inclined to pull the blankets over my head and try to sleep the rest of my life … Continue reading →

Posted in grief, not coping, widow | Tagged alone, ashes, cat, crap, crying, death, fucked up, grief, life doesn't know shit about playing fair, lonely, love, loving you, missing you, sad, widow | 1 Comment

Future in a Box

Posted on May 31, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello dearest. It’s only Tuesday but I’m thinking I need to write this week off already. As I was driving in to work this morning, I realised I’m treating my future like Schrodinger’s Cat; as long as I don’t open … Continue reading →

Posted in grief, not coping, widow | Tagged alone, cat, crying, death, grief, life, lonely, loss, love, loving you, missing you, mourning, sorrow, the future, widow | 2 Comments

When Meditation Sessions Attack

Posted on May 30, 2011 by cancerwidow

Evening my love. I’m having no luck with meditation lately. I told you about my attempt yesterday; well today was even worse. I went to my yoga class, again felt improvement over the past week and so was starting to … Continue reading →

Posted in grief, not coping, widow | Tagged alone, crying, death, grief, headache, lonely, loss, love, loving you, meditation, missing you, sad, this road is hard, tired, widow, yoga | 2 Comments

Retail Therapy

Posted on May 29, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello love. Decided last night I’d treat myself to some retail therapy today. I’ve been worrying about spending money ’cause I’m not sure yet how things will work out long-term, but I sensed yesterday you thought I should worry more … Continue reading →

Posted in coping, grief, not coping, widow | Tagged alone, death, distraction, exercise, grief, lonely, loss, love, loving you, missing you, retail therapy, sad, widow, yoga | 1 Comment

Walking alone into the cold and dark

Posted on May 26, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello dearest. Had dinner with our best friends tonight. Your absence hit us all, I think. My mood is low, energy levels are low and this cough is coming back at me some. I couldn’t muster an imitation of my … Continue reading →

Posted in grief, not coping, widow | Tagged alone, death, empty, friends, grief, lonely, loss, loving you, missing you, sad, sick, tired, widow | 1 Comment

Then and Now

Posted on May 26, 2011 by cancerwidow

Wrote this post on Wed 25 May 2011, hit the publish button and thought it had been uploaded, but I was wrong. Happens a lot these days. Hello my love. A year ago today, we were facing the worst but … Continue reading →

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Lie to me

Posted on May 24, 2011 by cancerwidow

Evening dearest. Every time I think of you, I cry. I lie to myself then, divert my thoughts, avert my mind, pretend you’re not gone, or we’ll not be apart for long. Cry. Lie. Cry. Lie. Why? Why have we … Continue reading →

Posted in grief, not coping, widow | Tagged alone, crying, death, empty, grief, lonely, loss, love, loving you, missing you, mourning, sad, tired, widow | 2 Comments

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