Tag Archives: cancer

Speaking of cats…

Posted on June 1, 2011 by cancerwidow

I’m sorry my love. LBF Cat is unwell. I took him to the vet this afternoon and they’re running a series of blood tests to see what’s going on, but it looks like that funny tooth we noticed a few … Continue reading →

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I just can’t think of you

Posted on May 27, 2011 by cancerwidow

Dearest; how screwed up is this life that to get through the day and be able to pretend I’m a real human being, I have to not think of you? When you were ill and we didn’t know why, I … Continue reading →

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Then and Now

Posted on May 26, 2011 by cancerwidow

Wrote this post on Wed 25 May 2011, hit the publish button and thought it had been uploaded, but I was wrong. Happens a lot these days. Hello my love. A year ago today, we were facing the worst but … Continue reading →

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Another week. More tears.

Posted on May 20, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello my love. Every day passes so slowly for me now that a couple of days of being flat – not crying much, thinking I’m coping – can seem like weeks. Then, the grief slams back down and you think … Continue reading →

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Too Tired to Think

Posted on May 18, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello my love. Really tired today. Still getting over this cough/cold thing and looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow. Thank you so much for helping me not be upset by the problems with the funeral director. I know it’s the … Continue reading →

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Sad Sunday

Posted on May 15, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello, my love. Today crept up and caught me unaware, even though I knew it was coming, have been dreading it; still got me. Woke up with a bad cough, the thing I’ve been trying to avoid. Maybe doing the … Continue reading →

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Housework

Posted on May 8, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello, love. Had a lovely breakfast with my folks today. Missed you. Thank you for teaching me the joy of a cooked breakfast, of poached eggs and bacon, juice and coffee. Every time I have a cooked breakfast, I think … Continue reading →

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Headaches and heartaches

Posted on May 7, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello, love. A quiet but unpleasant day. I was meant to visit your folks today for lunch, but your Dad has been taken ill and I’ve spent the day at my folks’ place hoping for good news. Situation is still … Continue reading →

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The grass keeps growing

Posted on May 2, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello, my love. I’m back at the house after spending the long weekend with Mum and Dad. The floor needed cleaning again. Clothes needed washing. Grass needed mowing. I did all these things. Standing at the stove cooking dinner, my … Continue reading →

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Pain and grief

Posted on May 1, 2011 by cancerwidow

Evening, my love. My ankle is getting better, but I’ve done something awful to my neck/shoulder. Very painful. Could really use your ever-reliable method of cracking my neck for me, or even just a hug. Our best friends are home … Continue reading →

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