Tag Archives: family

Break

Posted on June 5, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello my dearest love. It’s Sunday night and I’m back at our house after spending the weekend at Mum and Dad’s. The last couple of days have been very like a little holiday from the abject depths of my grief. … Continue reading →

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Sixteen

Posted on June 3, 2011 by cancerwidow

Evening, my love. It’s been a day. I’ve cried, laughed, been angry and sad, and happy too. To be honest, today would be the best Friday I’ve had since you died, but that’s not saying much. It’s just that here, … Continue reading →

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Bitter Days

Posted on May 14, 2011 by cancerwidow

Evening, love. We had a very cold night; two blankets on the bed. A crisp, late Autumn day. Like all glorious sunrises and stunning sunsets I see now, beautiful days just make me sad. A little bit angry. A lot bitter and … Continue reading →

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Headaches and heartaches

Posted on May 7, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello, love. A quiet but unpleasant day. I was meant to visit your folks today for lunch, but your Dad has been taken ill and I’ve spent the day at my folks’ place hoping for good news. Situation is still … Continue reading →

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12 Weeks

Posted on May 7, 2011 by cancerwidow

Twelve weeks, my love. Missing you, longing to be with you, feeling so empty and alone, but trying to accept what you’ve asked of me. Trying to live. I achieved a few things today, the greatest being a small sense … Continue reading →

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Pain and grief

Posted on May 1, 2011 by cancerwidow

Evening, my love. My ankle is getting better, but I’ve done something awful to my neck/shoulder. Very painful. Could really use your ever-reliable method of cracking my neck for me, or even just a hug. Our best friends are home … Continue reading →

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Too many reminders

Posted on April 16, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hey darl. Too tired and drunk again. Not much sleep last night. Clenching my teeth, so woke up with bad headache. Long drive out west for family gathering for your Gran’s 80th birthday. Too tired and head too sore. Couldn’t … Continue reading →

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Friday #9

Posted on April 15, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello, my love. Nine weeks today since you died, and it’s been a long day. Took my Sweet P to the vet again today for a follow-up x-ray; still no evidence the cancer has returned; still have mixed feelings about … Continue reading →

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Ciao bello

Posted on April 5, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello, dearest. Today was a calmer day but probably only because it was very busy at work – big deadline – and I spent the evening with Mum. She asked me to come back to Italian classes with her. I … Continue reading →

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Fourth Week (1 month): Memorial

Posted on March 11, 2011 by cancerwidow

Evening, dearest. We held the memorial this evening. You were the guest of honour in absentia. Just as you wanted, there was plenty of booze, good food, laughter and hugs. We didn’t get maudlin. Yes, we cried. Yes, we miss … Continue reading →

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