Tag Archives: loving you

It’s not the obvious stuff

Posted on May 22, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello dearest. Went to the movies today. With my folks. Movie was fine – lighthearted fluff – but about three quarters in, I noticed the middle-aged couple sitting in the row in front of me. They’d pushed up the armrest … Continue reading →

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Another week. More tears.

Posted on May 20, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello my love. Every day passes so slowly for me now that a couple of days of being flat – not crying much, thinking I’m coping – can seem like weeks. Then, the grief slams back down and you think … Continue reading →

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Is there another word for ‘miss’?

Posted on May 20, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello love. The last few days have been me at the top of the rollercoaster again but I’m looking down now. Yeeha. Driving home from work today, I suddenly had the strongest feeling that you’re missing me, that you’re feeling … Continue reading →

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Too Tired to Think

Posted on May 18, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello my love. Really tired today. Still getting over this cough/cold thing and looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow. Thank you so much for helping me not be upset by the problems with the funeral director. I know it’s the … Continue reading →

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WTF?

Posted on May 17, 2011 by cancerwidow

Evening, my love. I thought the low point of my day today was just having to be at work while being worn out by a persistant cough that is making my ribs and belly ache. I was wrong. I’d intended … Continue reading →

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Working at living

Posted on May 16, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello, love. Went to work today – Mondays are still Un-Fundays. The cough I’d tried to avoid by resting up last week still caught up with me. I have that horrible headache that comes of coughing too much for little … Continue reading →

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Sad Sunday

Posted on May 15, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello, my love. Today crept up and caught me unaware, even though I knew it was coming, have been dreading it; still got me. Woke up with a bad cough, the thing I’ve been trying to avoid. Maybe doing the … Continue reading →

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Out there

Posted on May 11, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello, hubby. I used to marvel at the ever-expanding, unquantifiable, glorious volume of my love for you. Now, I find myself overwhelmed by the sheer quantity, weight and vastness of my sorrow. When I let myself see it, feel it … Continue reading →

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Housework

Posted on May 8, 2011 by cancerwidow

Hello, love. Had a lovely breakfast with my folks today. Missed you. Thank you for teaching me the joy of a cooked breakfast, of poached eggs and bacon, juice and coffee. Every time I have a cooked breakfast, I think … Continue reading →

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12 Weeks

Posted on May 7, 2011 by cancerwidow

Twelve weeks, my love. Missing you, longing to be with you, feeling so empty and alone, but trying to accept what you’ve asked of me. Trying to live. I achieved a few things today, the greatest being a small sense … Continue reading →

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It’s not the obvious stuff

Another week. More tears.

Is there another word for ‘miss’?

Too Tired to Think

WTF?

Working at living

Sad Sunday

Out there

Housework

12 Weeks

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